Apr. 28, 2009 - It turned out that I was lonely, lonely person
I did not want to write articles, do not know how today, and looking for individuals looking for a place to talk, really good sad heart, a bad mood today, really very poor, usually do not have a life worthy of those who talk, think find a personal chat, talk about the truth, but to the ghosts of Fujian where even a person I trust not, my friends little we engage in the construction of the narrow face communication, but also less than the number of exchanges, is should be such a way of life, depression and more of my heart many, many, many things need to talk to each other and to explore, but I broke in the company, whom it should choose good friends, but I usually less than a lot of. All my friends I am far from worthy of my trust or a lot to Fujian to the past two years, I am getting old and fixed in a project worth did not come into contact with the number of contacts, I was also because of the suppression, in the heart started bud. I am a humorous person, but I now feel that they are not, and is a melancholy person, what I do so badly, life is work. Lover I do not understand a lot of time, it is difficult to communicate with me, and I live on such a day two days three days ... ... to make a living and life. No one has ever asked me, do you have happy? Do you have happy? No, no.
I am a very loving life, but I do not think so, and to suppress the work of suppressing the day, day by day, that is, to repeat, I do not want to do, but I have to continue. Arrival time of the beginning of Fujian Province, which college to the hearts of flame, that is for her to give up the original work, abandoned the home, to come here too much I did not consider that to work first, long to adjust to further height to climb, life is not difficult, but is only emptiness, I am here in order to gain a foothold in order to have good development in future, in order to have their own career future, I endure a living.
I work a lot of people do not understand, that is, project management, said that white is the progress of the project quality control of security, a certain degree of responsibility, because the resident on behalf of the company, so a lot of time on many occasions, had to consider re-do it over and over again. Normal interaction of those who will be the site, I can not go too close to them, one of the reasons for the company, and the other is done in order to work better reason may be that some people understand. In this way, my life is that two first-line, other friends did not recognize the opportunity, that is engaged in construction, unlike other multi-business communication.
Usually the site things to do after, I left a man and a person to stay in office and quarters, but I am a person39s time to do something more than time, so silly, really have no time, they look at the sites, play games to pass the emptiness, as time goes by, cheap burberry sunglasses the whole people do not feel the edge of a lively, a melancholy change a person39s life, after all, not a good thing. And she told me not to go to work in the same city, in the company of her many contacts, go back to quarters is a lot of colleagues and with colleagues, the days not so boring, and some say that some laughter. I can only with the heart and their own, out of boredom when a person walks, a parade, and this is my life, is not very significant not strong, it is not does this mean? Reading, computers, houses, streets, and nothing more.
24 hours a day, I work only a short period of time 4 - 6 hours, the rest is his own person. She told me do not usually live together, split in two places, usually have few opportunities to communicate, we are husband and wife over the weekend purely Moreover, it is not every weekend together, the probability is not high, almost every weekend, I like happy, may be looking forward to the day, I formed the psychological, and her very warm and very happy together, although not many words, but to think a lot of heart to feel rather than to say mouth.
We occasionally have trouble when unhappy, I am disgusted, but also very happy that she is the youngest at home, she felt a good sense of self, what have done well, what is she, she is also very little understanding of my little understanding of me, let me first time but I am very lost. I hope that mutual understanding of love is the kind of mutual understanding, not me I was wrong on torture, I had to endure the emotional torment of a life on the throw to the thousands of miles away I do not consider the feelings of my heart, and I always to go to accommodation and active, I tired of this life, and feel that freshness is not always so sad my ailing heart to insist on their own to please, this is not a matter of fact I am happy, I do not want this life. Each contradictions are my reason? Why I can not go down very quickly about, and she and I always have to fight a protracted war, a life that is at least 3-5 days, as many as several weeks. Good horror, do not know why, I am afraid of this, I do not want to do, that feeling did not empty the whole person, and do not want to eat, do not want clothes, do not want to go to work, do not want to have no place to go, I feel that there is no suitable places to go, he locked himself in a music room to sleep, God, do you understand how I boil the.
Now, I do not know how to feel, and tired of. Her health is very bad to go to Hospital for medical checkup from time to time, I always stand in front of to care, to care, to understand, and help to warm, I always do her on the first. This year I physical status of the elderly there, I feel annoyed, I am very worried, I feel that if I fell to the future, no way to really take good care of her, I would like very much, but she do not care about me, and I asked her to accompany me to see a doctor to buy medicine, shirk her several times, and all I have left regardless. Poor health when I feel bad, really need a person to accompany the need for warmth, she did not consider my feelings about love with me, love with my odds, I would like to hope is not the case, why do you have issues of concern to me to her, happy to find ways to help you do not worry, try to take you to accompany you without distraction, to think about those who will not let you, think of a way to let you ease of mind, why you wanted to do? Check out last month I had fatty liver and hyperlipidemia, all of a sudden the whole person I do not know how, and depression, and I do not know how to describe, in any case is very bad, the doctor said that I do not think carefully about the consequences of treatment may be very serious, tell me the things she was not too much persol sunglasses of her response, after a few weeks I feel like this No, I have to see a doctor to the drugs, she said good accompany me, but she did not seriously again, I did not know how bad mood, she told me angrysleep, I think, she do not care, I care about in the end, why do I feel bad when you do not comfort me, but I blame the old pulling a face, maybe I temper greatly? Why did not understand me, to comfort me with words I say? And she was always uncomfortable about their own, are not happy, in my bad mood irritability fields based on the snow added more cream. I began to question our feelings of all of us began to question the other day, I really heart-rending of. Evening, several of my call, she accompany me to buy medicine, and number of the day I did not buy their own drugs, but for fear of her physical body lean, poor absorption, they bought a lot of health care products, hope that she healthy, I then have forgotten their own. She recently said no appetite to eat that poor, I would like to stop her first health care products to the hospital for an examination can blame me that she wanted to take her to eat her death, I am a really bad mood, they hung up the phone , and I will be playing over the past has been turned off, and she sent me the news said as you gas me, I did feel bad, I do not want to say anything else. I called her the next day I39m not saying that I do not want to hear the voices, I do not want in, then her message to me you will think about how you and I call last night, and I have not thought about it before you do the liver patientsah, ask your doctor health care products I can eat? I must be under the guidance of doctors before they can eat. I did not want to buy, I was worried about negative impact will be, you insist to buy, I respect you may be two or three days I ate abdominal distention, nausea peacetime also, I said I do not want to eat, I do not know if this is what you care about the so-called people. tomorrow will be my medical check-ups in Fuzhou, the inspection report if it has deteriorated, I will not give me half to you. I do not know how sad, God, I collapse, I am well on his way into a crime, injured in a good good I really injured, I do not know why so I would like to say. We feel the feelings that I maintain a person, she could easily go to pierce the injury, I am completely sad and completely lost, but also thoroughly realized, and the original, I have been caring for her by her as to her injuries, she has never has never been one to understand me.
Why do I always feel bad when you want and I odds, why, when I bore you always do not understand the trouble with me but why I always need when you leave me, Why do I need to accompany always when you do not see the shadow, Why do you ignore my concern, why do I love as hatred, why ... ...
Had a good feeling lonely, I really started to hurt, and I have been feeling lonely, lonely person
When a man sad, aggrieved and tears can only buried in the bottom of my heart
Not you do not love me, you will not, do not know how to love me, I want very simple, it is a little more care and warmth, I do not care about other livingI will not complain, it will only move forward. But I want is very simple
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